And that has taught me that i have many times ignored or said something bad to people who are expressing their feelings to me for them whom they don’t like or get irritated with… not knowing that how they are feeling ..

But now when i realise that i am getting mad at xyz person and the reason is this, and then when i recollect same feelings of them who had sometime shared their same feelings with me and i had ignored them or had given a lecture of being nice to others,i feel like saying sorry to them for not understanding them in past.

How will they be nice to others if others are not nice to them, when i met those not so nice or irritating people i got the same feelings… now even i feel like sharing those same feelings to them who had shared with me once….

BUT.. i can not, i can not because of many reasons,

They were lucky that i was their with them to listen to what they are saying, also they were unlucky because i was the one listening to them but not the one who understood them, i wish i had, i wish i had not said that “dont talk to me if you want to say something bad for xyz and abc, you better say good things about them or dont tell me anything, i dont want to talk to you”….

Also i feel that its my punishment of not being able to share my feelings with them because i had said something like this and for not understanding them, today i feel i was rude, i didnt try to understand them, i was unable to understand, i am sorry, i couldnt understand you, i am sorry that i said not to talk to me, i am sorry that i couldn’t put myself in your shoe and think from your point, i am sorry, now i will always be with you , be it anything, i will first understand you, then others, you are most important for me and not those people…

Many people i judged thinking that even they must be same like others, even they will cheat me like others had, i doubted you, i shout at you, i say anything to you because of others , just because i know that you will not go anywhere, just because i know that you are the one whom i must tell because others who are connected to you are irritating to me…

I am sorry that i never think about how you feel, i am sorry that i never think that you must be feeling bad because i say anything that i feel or think is right, i don’t think even once, i am sorry that i dont think about ‘whats your fault if others are like that ?’ , i am sorry that i get angry, i am sorry that i dont see your love towards me, i am sorry that i dont see what all you are giving me and still i think that i am happy but still not so happy because of 1 % that is irritating me, i am sorry for not seeing those 99.99% of the positive part of my life with you.

Those who have been with me all the time, good, bad, worst, knowing and not knowing they have always given me love and nothing else, will be with me even when whole universe will leave me alone.

I am sorry that i have not understood you many times,i am sorry that  just because i always knew that you will give me everything and anything in this world i asked for everything i wanted, i am sorry that i hurt you the most in your life when you had the most expectations from me and i let you down, i am sorry that i am not doing anything in return for you, i am sorry that i am not able to give you all those things that you deserve , i am sorry that i am not able to use the training that you have given me that has made me capable to give you something in return that make you happy,

But i promise, i will give you everything that you deserve, everything that you always wanted, everything that you think  about.

I promise i will be nice to you, to everyone i think are irritating, i will be the one you had always imagined in me.

I will make sure that i understand what you are going through, i will understand each and every word you say, everything that you must be feeling.

I Am Sorry to all You Guys i have mentioned here…. I promise that i will keep my promise, just one thing today i am asking for the last time from you is to Forgieve Me… Please.

I Am Sorry.

then he enjoyed food at a place called “Say Cheese” in town..

18th Birthday morning, because it was my birthday, i was not suppose to do any work.. so i got up late …  and Deep sacrificing his 1 whole day from work took me to lunch keeping his all imp work pending … and thn we watched this new released movie AVATAR at Imax Wadala… this was again a surprise.. he reminded me our old days .. when we were dating each other .. he useto take me to imax and we spend our weekends at this place.. eating , gaming and watching movies …haha.. thank you Deep you made my day ….

oh btw .. Avatar is amazing movie.. must watch..

and then went to “Chokhi Dhani” with Family for dinner … and this place too made my day fun filled … i love this place .. you guys make sure you visit thr once …

oh ya .. Deeps gift …

he bought HIS favorite thing….. a supper cozy quilt for me .. which he loves more then me .. hahahaha ..

and the day ends ….

but .. 19th night .. he makes me sit late till 3 AM gives his half work which he had kept pending because of my birthday… and we both finishes it .. haha …

but it was fun working last night till late … we actually enjoyed it … hahaha…

I dont think i would have been happy with anyone else in my life .. Deep is the best thing ever happened to me … Thank you for the surprises and aalllllllllllll love you give me here is something for you ….

Tu he meri hai sari zameen,
Chahe kahi se chalu,
Tujhpe he aake ruku,
Tere bina mai jau jaha,
Koi bhi raah chunu,
Tujhpe he aake ruku,
Tum mile to lamhe tham gaye,
Tum mile to sare gum gaye,
Tum mile to muskurana aagaya,
Tum mile to jadu chagaya,
Tum mile to jeena aagaya,
Tum mile to maine paya hai khuda.

Megha Ganatra

Falling in love is a bad thing .. I hate that I am in love with Deep..
I am in London at the moment.. far far away from Deep ..
I  thought I am strong enough to live without him..
but dont know how .. and why.. I feel weak without him.. I miss him like anything.. if I dont talk to him on phone for longer time, I feel something is wrong .. something is parting me from him…
I starte worring about him.. I feel like running back to him to India and hug him tight…and tell him that dont you ever let me go away from you.. no matter what reason …
i keep telling everyone .. dont love anyone somuch that you cant live without him.. and I feel I do what I am saying… but I was wrong .. I am doing the opposite of what I say …

its all about I, Me, and My feelings.. I dont know what he is feeling.. I know he feels the same way .. but I am sure he is missing me much more thn I am..

Sorry for leaving you along baby .. miss you .. love you :! .. and i wont do it ever again …

Megha Ganatra.

she just thinks that her self and her family is the best and perfect… and rest all is bad ..

this is to you lady -

you are the most pathetic person on this earth, if I get a chance I will get all your family secrets out to your relatives …

thn I will see how you speak about others and how you behave rudely to others …

Ifeel like abusing her like hell and give a tight punch on her face so that she cant speak for the rest of her life…

till now i useto feel that “ooh its so bad that her family is suffering from this pain” , but now i feel its good that she is having this pain , i am actually happy  …

she must be punished this way only … blody people dont see what is in thr house and talk about others …

when they need us they be good to us .. and when we try to be friendly with thm and try to help thm because they need us, they become monster … its not even that we need her … its not that we are living on her money … still she acts like this …

i wish i could write her name and exactly what she is doing .. I would have shown her true face to her whole family ..

she will repay … its said that “You reap what you sow” … she will get good amount of pain in her life …

and thn I will actually tell her .. that this is the return for what you had done in past…

Megha Ganatra.

Why ?

Megha.

I do not and don’t want to believe in God
I believe its You,
At least for Me … its just You ,
I call You my World…
I don’t want to get out of this World…
Still why am I always scared …

Why ?

Husband :
Your scareness scares Me
You know I too get scared many times
I keep on thinking – Whats happening ?
You are thinking I will go away
I think You will go away
Sometimes I feel – Did I marry to wrong person ?
Sometimes You feel the same
But eventually I realize that it was a wrong way to think
And then I feel like running away with You
Feel like don’t want anyone around
I don’t want anyone
Just You and Me
Because I want to spend time with You
Only You…

Megha.

Megha.

I thought: so did I.

And the movie got over.

And my brain went in flashback for few seconds [may be 20] and I lived all those moments again in those 20 seconds…

I had been to watch Luck-By-Chance, nice movie.

It shows how life goes, nothing goes the way we want, you fight fight fight and fight, for work, survival, love every thing, not all love stories has happy ending, I fought like anything, Saam, Daam, Dand, Bhed,

[SAAM-REASONING
DAAM - MONETARY ALLUREMENT
DAND- PUNISHMENT
BHED-CREATING DIVISIONS]

Nothing worked,

What I have learnt from my past is,

• Time is the best solution; nothing can heal as much as time can.
• This world is selfish; you won’t find true people easily.
• If you don’t listen to people who are advising you, you will 100% fall.
• You fall, you learn more.
• What works is, Love,
• Love of Family,
• Love of people like Deep [who are Gods people, who have a pure soul]
• When you are betrayed, your soul speaks, it becomes selfish, and it actually happened.

Why should I cry? Why should I suffer? What is my fault? Let them be alone, let them suffer, let them cry,

Why should I be sad? , I will move on, I will be happy..

And I chose to be happy on 25th December 2005.

Megha Ganatra.

Haathon ki lakerien badal jayengi
Ghum ki ye zanjeerein pighal jayengi
Ho khuda pe bhi asar
Tu duaon ka hai ghar
Meri maa meri maa
Pyaari maa mumma
Ho.. maa meri maa
Pyaari maa mumma

Bigdi kismat bhi sawar jaayegi
Zindagi taraane khushi ke gayegi
Tere hote kiska dar
Tu duaon ka hai ghar

Meri maa meri maa
Pyaari maa mumma
Ho.. maa meri maa
Pyaari maa mumma

Yun to main sabse nyaara hoon
Tera maa main dulaara hoon
Yun to main sabse nyaara hoon
Par tera maa main dulaara hoon
Duniya mein jeene se zyada uljhan hai maa
Tu hai amar ka jahaan
Tu gussa karti hai
Bada achcha lagta hai
Tu kaan pakadati hai
Badi zor se lagta hai
Meri maa

Meri maa meri maa
Pyaari maa mumma
Ho.. maa meri maa
Pyaari maa mumma

Haathon ki lakerien badal jayengi
Ghum ki ye zanjeerein pighal jayengi
Ho khuda pe bhi asar
Tu duaon ka hai ghar

Meri maa meri maa
Pyaari maa mumma
Ho.. maa meri maa
Pyaari maa mumma